I had definitely hoped for a more positive start to 2018.
However, it seems like things are still challenging - more a continuation of 2017.
What is most disappointing is when one believes that they have made changes; gone through the hard yards and hoping for the outcomes to be different. Made changes to set oneself up for a better tomorrow. But no. The outcomes are not different. The pain continues both professionally and personally. All that slogging. All that running with the head down to get things done.
What is disappointing is that after all that push - nothing. Or even regression in some instances.
Perhaps I am not used to being in such a predicament - and usually can overcome such a predicament. But now I start to question whether I can even overcome it all and what it really would take. Going from, "What do I need to do?" to "What else can I do?" takes some time. I wonder whether I still have the same mental resolve I had when I was younger.
Have I lost it?
I certainly hope not.
Perhaps I am lost in the detail or I am not really thinking long term enough. Let's hope I can turn things around - soon!